26 April 2011
I'm not a writer! I enjoy writing on someday, but only some days. It's not a passion of mine. It's fun, different, and something I can do while my roommates are being annoying and I need to escape. Writing is my escape from the real world, it's not my world! It's a refuge from the everyday run of the mill shit I go through. So no, I will not be switching my major from Biology/Chemistry to English. I have a passion, a drive, a carefully built relationship with science and no minor liking of a subject can break the bond we've created. I enjoy writing because I'm not forced! I'm not forced to be someone/something while writing, I'm not forced to write, Not forced to write about something specific, not forced! Writing allows me to say everything I can't or won't say! When I write it's just me and the computer. There is no filter, no judgment, no resentment, no rules, no expectations. This is just me having fun. Stop telling what I need to do, don't tell me to switch majors, don't even talk to me about writing. It's not meant for you to read, it's for me! It's my twisted version of therapy, get your own! I don't care if it's good. It has no other purpose than to be raw, truthful, honest, and a little mean, and that's good enough for me! So, I'm not a writer, I'm the girl who can never find the right words to say, so I write them. I've never been good with words, my mouth doesn't have the room for everything I want to say, but a page never runs out of space. Pages never run out, you can write as much as you want to to get your point across, but conversations have time limits, and not half of what is needed to be said gets said, nonetheless what you want to say. I write to say everything I can't say within a twenty-four hours time period! I write so I don't explode with emotion and thoughts! I don't believe in expressing emotions, they take up to much time, turn into disappointments, and are subjective. So, I don't waste my time talking/expressing emotions in everyday conversations or everyday manor, so I bottle them up and write about them. Like I said, I write with no great purpose other than to not go insane!
Love,
I write, I'm not a writer!
I love this because it's so true. I think a lot people are just like what you are saying. I know i write down whats on my mind a lot times not so anyone else can read it but just so i can get it out of my head. So i agree with you that I'm not an "english" kind of writer but a writer in my own ways and time.
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